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Name: Teresa
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 12/4/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: School, family, on the phone.. YOu know same old boring Stuff..
Expertise: I have NONE.. beside the fact that I can SHOP for hours.. EVERY GIRL HAVE THAT..
Occupation: Student
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
AIM:  supurvi3tgurl
Member Since:
8/8/2003
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| I have never been a supporter of the idea of "predetermined ideal" but come to think of it. I am starting to believe in it. No matter what I do or how much I want to run away from it. Well not literally, it still hang on some where in my mind but eventually it would come out again.
There is really no TRUTH in life. There is truth but then again is that the pure form of truth? I believe a person can hold truth only to themselves. We can't make some one tell the truth even when they say that its the truth but can we really prove it? Even if it is proven does it become the truth. Sadly the answer is still a NO. There is no truth in any thing just a perception of what is the truth. I am not going to go look for that truth any more because I have found some thing else that it doesn't matter what the truth is. The end result will still be the same.
I am glad to say that I have found that "predetermined path". For the longest time, I always thought it was just my dream that pushes me towards it and I have let it go so many times. I never thought of it as a destiny. Can we really have destiny with free-will?. I have lost track of my dreams from time to time or have given up on it but each times it comes back. I would get a feeling that this is going to be it and it would drift away again. I am glad I did what I did. I finally decided that like "THIS IS IT" I will go for it; no matter how long it takes I will make it because its predetermine. OF course we have free will but our free-will is still bound to the predetermined course. I am not afraid of U-turns, stop signs and detours because I have seen my determined path. I am not strong enough to carry on but I know I have supporters that will pick me up to fight again. I will be fine in the end with all the specials help I am getting. I am glad to know the "truth". I can really feel it this time. I promise myself that I will loose sight on it again. NEVER EVER.
I am starting to be a believer in things I turn my back on. I shall never do that again.
I was WRONG in a RIGHT way because no matter what there will be only 1 outcome and only one end.
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| THe reason why i wanted to study psychology was because I know I have a problem. I have an eating problem. I can't believe how long i have battling with it. I think i've been like this ever since i could remember starting with high school. When I am happy I couldn't stop eating but when I am sad, depressed or nervous( well any thing that is going wrong in my life) I shut down not emotionally but more like a sick feeling in my stomach. I couldn't eat any thing even if I forced myself to eat. When I get some thing down I feel sooo sick yet i can't get it out. Any ways, I want to get healthy. I want to do the right thing. Does any one know how to cure this? I have been doing alot of research so I can help myself but I haven't find any thing on it yet.
I don't want to live like this for the rest of my life. It sucks when you are stressed out, and feeling sick to your stomach with food or without food. Oh yeah I can't sleep either.. GGrr.. I feel like crap right now for no reason.
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| So An birthday is coming up. I don't know what to get him. I am way to busy to fold stars or cranes and beside I think we're too old for stars and cranes. I am not making another scarf. I am tired of knitting and crocheting. I can just buy him clothes but he doesn't need any thing. I can;t believe getting someone present can be this hard. I want it to be really special gggrr.. I just don't know. I was thinking about baking and decorating a cake but that would be a waste of ingredients.. I AM SOO NOT GOOD AT BAKING. My specialty is burning stuff not baking them. *sigh* So I thought about making a scrapbook and storybook mixed together but man.. 2 years worth of stuff and all those stupid (funny) things we're been through. I have no time for that either.. Grrr.. You I just paint a portrait of us?lolz *stick figures*
I am back in square one. I have 2 weeks left..His birthday is on a wednesday. He will prob have to be at the hospital so there is no chance of ditching that. I love the beach and he loves the mountain. We can go to a cabin or some thing but dude he works all the time. I am always doing my own thing even on his birthday but I know we will get through this. I guess it makes the heart grow fonder. It has been 2 years but I felt like it was only yesterday because we never see each other much.
I guess I will just think of some other ideas..
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| SUMMER OF HELL
What a crazy summer! I have been working full time and going to summer school. Its crazy. I can't believe i did it though. I guess I am stronger than before. So I spend 1 week in Colorado. Yeah that didn't go well. I am afraid of moms now. Meeting his family didn't go so well. I am extremely sad but there's not thing I can do about it. He is very supportive of the situation. He told me not thing changed no matter what his mom said. I am alright. I cried that whole week, I couldn't understand why she hates me. An and her fought for days about me and the more he's on my side the more she hates me. I think its just because he's such a mama-boy that its tough to let him go. NO matter what we are still planning to get marry. He said she will have to accept me sooner or later any ways. 
SO now I feel all Better...
SO I have been working hard and study hard just because I want to be with him so bad. I wanted to prove to people that I am not with him because he's a doctor. I am not a gold digger. Anyways, its been tough but I LOVE my JOB.. I just LOVE everything about life right now.. Its so wonderful to have found a career that makes me want to go to work everyday. I can't wait to have kids. Its only 3 more years. I hope not thing change between An and I.
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| I AM THE FIRST PERSON IN SAC WITH JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE TIX FOR SEPT 10... OMG.. I AM SOOOOO FREAKING HAPPY....
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